Thursday, February 7, 2013

Feeling Good

Being a woman is a struggle. For real though! In the small group Jess and I are in we were talking about how woman need that verbal affirmation that they are beautiful. They (being our book) said that those things make a woman feel good.

When we first started talking about the subject I was like I don't feel I have to be told I am beautiful everyday by Jess. Yes, for sure it is nice! Who doesn't like to be told that?! For me though it is when my sisters tell me that I look skinny, good, or cute that make my day. Maybe it's that I value their a opinion a little bit more. Or maybe the fact that they will tell the truth, flat out-no dancing around the subject.

When I ask Jess what he thinks of my outfit it goes about like this: "Jess, does this look okay?" He looks at the outfit(most times e looks) and then replies, "yah you look hot." (Haha yes he says that most times). Then there are the times he doesn't like what I am wearing and just says, "Uhh, yah you look nice,"

Keyword nice;) He is just trying to help and to be honest I would rather have it the way it is now. Maybe most women don't, I'm not sure!?

One of the ladies in our group pointed out that it is not just about the looks though. I thought about that and found it to be so true, for me at least!

For me to feel really good about myself it doesn't take anyone telling me I look good. What it takes is my house being picked up, dishes done, kids fed, and laundry going (because we know that is never ending). Now those things don't always happen in the same day or anything. But when Jess comes home from work and notices how I have been trying to keep up with the house, sometimes succeeding other times not, that's what makes me feel good. It's when my little sister comes to my house when I'm not there and says my house looked good. This are the things that make me feel like a great woman.

Putting this out there right now, if I have food swept up within a hour of the kids eating- I consider that a win.

My hands go up to any woman, kid or no kids, that work out of the home. Because most times all woman feel like this (I'm sure they are a select few who don't care). Most women feel the need to have everything and everyone around them taken care of.

What about you, what makes you feel good!?

Wednesday, February 6, 2013

Note To Self

A couple weeks ago I saw a photo on Pinterest that I thought was super cute. For one reason or another, I didn't repin it, or like it. To no avail, I just spent like over a half hour trying to find it again. So, while it's fresh on my mind I'm writing a public note to myself.

It was actually two photos next to each other, the first was a wedding photo of the couple and said "year 1," "the beginning" or something along those lines underneath it. The second one was of the couple with their newborn, taken in the same location and in a similar pose, and it said "2 years later" underneath.

I want to recreate this when Angry Bean arrives! This is by far my favorite wedding photo of me and Tim. It's even better in print, the lighting looks so much softer. When I look it at 3 1/2 years later, I still get butterflies.

I already have a plan for how we can recreate it. It was taken in my Grandparent's backyard, so location isn't an issue. And can't you just picture a sweet little baby tucked between me and Tim, and Stella standing next to us holding the hand that my bouquet is in? I can, and it seems perfect.

Monday, February 4, 2013


Life just gets busy sometimes and life right now is really busy for me. Between school, school for work, work, Roo, the blog, commitments, and relationships with friends and family some things just get put on the back burner. For me my relationship with God is one thing I just put to the back 1st and go crazy to get everything else completed first. I know I know this isn't the way it should be...and I am working on it... but I just think its cool no matter what we are doing and no matter how far back I put God in my commitments he still finds a way to show he is there and help me with what I am struggling with most. 

Lately I have been struggling with forgiveness. Forgive and forget... forgive and never forget.. or whatever it is...forgiveness is hard. Holding a grudge is tiring and is a daily struggle. I have been struggling with this and today I was working on homework and mom had the radio playing throughout the house. I knew it was on and could here it but it was background noise and I was concentrated on what I was reading. But then all of the sudden for some reason my concentration stopped on my books and listened to the song. It just so happened to be a song about forgiveness.... weird that no matter how much you forget about your relationship with God he never forgets about you and is always there and puts a song in your day that helps and speaks to you about your struggles. 

My favorite part: 

It flies in the face of all your pride
It moves away the mad inside
It's always anger's own worst enemy
Even when the jury and the judge
Say you gotta right to hold a grudge
It's the whisper in your ear saying 'set it free'


Thought I would share the song with ya ....


Sunday, February 3, 2013


My Day (Sunday) went a little like this. . .

4:15 am woke up by screaming, crying, wide awake Gatlyn.

4:30 am finally give up on putting him back to bed and bring him in our bed. Along with Rae because of course Gat woke her up too. (She was stuck on the floor)

Laid in bed listening to the two of them giggle laugh and Gat yelling DA DA DA over and over and over and over and over... and no DaDa did NOT wake up. (Only if I could sleep like that).

4:50 Can't handle the kicking and yelling anymore and put Gat in his own bed. He stays quiet and goes to sleep. WHEW!

I let Rae stay on our floor. I go back to sleep.

Wake up at 9:30, not bad at all if you ask me.

Decide to stay in, instead of going to church. (We have been having the nasty colds around here, no need to pass that crap on)

Clean, dishes and laundry all day.

Go get my butt handed to me in basketball.

Superbowl party with the fam. Lots of laughs and food of course.

Won 30 dollars:) Cheap with 50 cent squares.

Come to bed thinking I will have some awesome, inspiring blog post.

Listened to my daughter hacking up a lung.

Went and cleaned up the puke bc of the hacking.

Now am sitting here with nothing to type about because I just want sleep.

Planning on getting up early and working out, we will see how that goes when the alarm goes off.