Monday, July 16, 2012

Juggling Life

After having three kids I feel like I have kind of lost myself somewhere. Whether it be in my style or friends. 

I have a tough time balancing the kids, Jess, friends and family. It is, I would say my biggest downfall. I have let good relationships with girlfriends slip through the cracks. I always have the "mommy guilt" if I leave the kids at home with Jess, and I go out. I honestly think I can count on one hand how many times I have. It is something I want to work on. 

Although I have found great friendships in my sisters. They are my go to girls lately and we all have so many things in common now. Since Jamie has moved to the Mitten, we all have gotten even closer. I LOVE that we have that great sister bond. That bond is not something I take for granted. I have seen families that take that relationship for granted and it is no good. Sisters, I love you guys, your support, advice (sometimes), and mostly your girlies;)

Maybe I feel that other people my age won't understand what I am going through? Or that they don't want to hear that I was up all night with a puking 9 month old? I mean seriously, I am 23 with 3 kids. We have had a crappy year full of stuff that sucks. I don't think anybody could understand that, just as I can't understand some thing other people go though. Ya know?

But, I think it is important to have friends other than my sisters. Lacey is my best friend, and honestly right now I don't know if I deserve that title. I guess I have "friend guilt" (I am just one guilty person). The last couple weeks I have been feeling really bad about being such an inattentive friend. She has always has been so good to me as my life has changed. Whether it be bringing birthday gifts for the kids, sending Father's & Mother's Day cards, and of course she won't leave out the birthdays. I want her to know that I appreciate that. I want to do those things for her too! I am so thankful/grateful for a friend like her. Lace is my friend I won't see for a few weeks, and then we pick right up where we left off. Lacey was the first one to know that I was pregnant with Andi, my maid of honor and bff since. . .uhh 1st grade? It could have been preschool but I was way too into trucks. And her and Em were into tea parties and house, way too much for this girl!

I am ready to be the fun Mallorie again. I am ready to spread the love;) I am ready for some BALANCE! C'mon now I can cook dinner, open fruit snacks, talk on the phone, pour a glass of juice at the same time. I can balance friends, family, wifehood, sisterhood, and being a daughter all at once right?!

I am not the only one who struggles with this am I?

My new outlook is that I cannot be a good mom unless I am sane. And for me personally to be sane, I am going to have to get out of the house. Not for doctor's appointments or family functions. But, go sit and talk with my best friend for a few hours:) Or go get a pedicure with my mama and sisters, even if it is at Meijer, haha! I am so thankful for all the people in my life and all they do for me. I think it is time for me to return the favor. 

Cheers to Balancing LIFE!
Found this picture and makes me even more excited for our upcoming trip to South Haven! Doesn't Gatlyn look like Rae??!


  1. When you figure it out will you please let me know!? That is exactly how I feel this morning, and I happen to click on your blog. 22, with 2 kids 4 and 7 months old. A relationship that is so blessed, but somehow always gets left behind in the race of life. And the feeling that no one gets it. Thank you, I'm glad to know I'm not going crazy to feel so much at one time- happy, blessed, yet guilty and some how missing something.

    1. Thank you for reading! I am glad I am not the only one out there that is feeling this way. It is time for us mamas to give up the guilt and have a little fun:)


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